It’s 11.30am and our flight back home to Cape Town has been delayed. New boarding time is now 13.10pm and I am beyond exhausted after a 5 day trip up the Garden Route. To make matters worse my laptop battery is on 9%.
Warning! This is a “real talk” post, so expect no filter or sugar coating while reading. This is a very raw personal post that I wanted to share with you all. In order for you as the reader to understand my reasoning behind this post, I think it would be best to start at the beginning.
It was 2011 and I weighed a whopping and very uncomfortable 103kg the biggest I’ve ever been, and also the most self-conscious I’ve ever been. You have to sit and wonder; how did I get here? What went wrong in my life? The answers quite simple actually, nothing went wrong per say, I just made the wrong choices. It was a time for me when clubbing every night and consuming junk food to cure my hangover was my lifestyle. It sure had the worst effect on me, and it took me weighing 103kg to realise this. This was a very dark and scary time in my life. Dealing with everyday stresses of not being able to dress the way I wanted, having a complex about my arms and legs, and dreaming of day’s I’d be able to wear a pair of shorts in summer again.
Fast forward to 2016, and a happier, lighter and more confident woman stands in front of the mirror, having lost 26kg. How did I get to this point? It surely didn’t take me 4 years, as I first sat in my misery for about 2 years when I then finally decided in 2013 to make a change. At this stage, I was weighing a hefty 97 kg when I finally made the conscious choice to join the gym and start to eat healthier. After one year I had lost a healthy 10kg and managed to keep it off with ease, and most importantly still managed to enjoy my life. The next year being 2015 I lost an additional 8kg, it seemed my weight loss was coming to a bit of a halt and this was due to me cancelling my gym contract. Why would I do that you might ask? Well, I was like most people at the gym, I had no idea what I was doing, was I using the equipment correctly? Is my lower back supposed to be hurting like this? And of course because of these reasons and the fact that I had injured my knees I became very demotivated and ended up cutting out all types of physical activity altogether. This then led to me relying on food alone to help me reach my end goal. This was fine until the flab stayed behind that is. I was at an acceptable weight, however, I still found it a struggle to climb up stairs, go for runs and just feel confident in my clothes. Yes eating right will help you lose weight, however, toning up and remaining fit is a very important element to your overall success.
This was definitely not the way I was supposed to feel and look, I mean on a larger scale I am out here representing all the curvy ladies, and I just felt like I wasn’t doing anyone justice by not keeping my body in check and in shape.
In December 2015, after a few months of snapchat crushing on Rushda – RushTush as most people would know her (Female Fitness Guru) I finally decided to take the plunge and contact her for an assessment to join her Glow Gym. What had me excited was the fact that there were NO dreaded gym machines, all weight training was purely your own body weight, kettlebells and weight bags. I had also come to a point where I needed my very own drill sergeant, and through word of mouth and watching her snapchats I knew Rushda was the perfect person to drill my butt back into shape.
This is not a contradictory post at all, I have written in my previous real talk post – Curvy Fashion Blogger about owning my title as a curvy fashion blogger. Yes absolutely, I do and I do so with pride and confidence, however, my reason for this post is to shed light on my weight loss journey going forward, as well as my future journey to a healthier, and fitter me. You see when in my assessment with Rushda, one of the things she had asked me was “What is your goal weight” My reply, as naive as it might sound was “I want my 18 year old body back!” Rushda’s response has stuck with me ever since, and has fuelled me in many ways than she will ever know. Her response went something along the lines of “Simone, you are a woman now, your body is not the same as it was when you were 18, you have curves. Instead of wanting the body of an 18-year-old, rather aim for the confident, curvaceous body of a woman” That’s not to say I can’t get back to weighing 65kg, it’s to say, I need to accept that I am a woman now, and work on moulding my body into that of a healthy curvy woman one step at a time.
So, I have committed myself to 3 months with Rushda, however the way my enthusiasm is progressing I can confidently say I would like to make a lifelong commitment to being a “glow worm” (The term Rushda gives all her ladies at her gym) From day one I knew that I wanted to document my journey, and as a result hopefully motivate someone else to get up off the couch, put their fear aside and just do it. It’s never too late to make a change.
This week calls for my one month anniversary as a glow worm with RushTush. In the past month I have endured very painful muscles, muscles I didn’t even know existed. I have probably run up and down 7 flights of stairs 30 times, I have seen my body go through major strain, but also recover just as quickly. I have pushed myself to an uncomfortable level of endurance and pain, and have funny enough enjoyed it. I have received major motivation, guidance and support not only from Rushda, but from the many beautiful woman I have met in my classes. In this month I have lost an additional 2kg, along with gaining some muscle and slowly improving on my fitness. This is just the start for me, as I have made a lifelong commitment to stay on the right track, learn to love working out and being active.
I wanted to write this post to inspire others, to not give up. Even though I am not yet at my goal weight, I am extremely proud of myself for not allowing my body to go back to the way it was. I am also extremely proud of myself for taking charge of my life once again and pushing myself to achieve even more fitness goals. Slow & steady wins the race. As Rushda says “Rome wasn’t built in a day” It will definitely take some time for my body to get back to the level of fitness it used to be in. Having said all of this, I want to encourage each and every one of you to set some goals and go out and achieve them. I’d love to hear from you if you have your own weight loss or fitness stories.
About this look:
Sunglasses – Bondi Blu
Top – Woolworths
Skirt – Fashion Express
Sneakers – Adidas ZX Flux
Photography By – Tegan Smith Photography