Mr Probz says it best – My face above the water, my feet can’t touch the ground, Touch the ground, and it feels like I can see the sands on the horizon every time you are not around. I’m slowly drifting away (drifting away), Wave after wave, Wave after wave, I’m slowly drifting (drifting away), and it feels like I’m drowning, Pulling against the stream, Pulling against the stream.
These lyrics pretty much sum up my life right now. It’s been a while since I last posted on my Blog. I’ve been going through some major transitioning lately. My guess is that I’m clearly going through a mid-20’s crisis. I am 25 after all.
I wanted to write this very raw post not only for myself but for others out there that have or are going through the same thing.
It’s a very uncomfortable feeling knowing that you don’t have your life put together, and even more confusing because you somewhat feel like you should.
I’ve had this misconception that I should be settled in my dream job, living in my own trendy apartment and engaged to my soulmate. However, that’s not the case, and I’ve had some rough times coming to terms with that. A lot of things play a vital role in the above.
If you are not happy in your existing job you are going to feel as if you failed in life. If you haven’t yet met the man of your dreams, you will always have your mother’s voice in your head saying “the clock is ticking”. And if you’re still living at home, how many more times can you use the excuse “it’s cheaper”? However, I have had to endure these thoughts and rough times to realise that “it’s OK”.
I have now only realised that it’s completely normal to move at your own pace, as long as you’re moving that is. I have realised that your 20’s are the years where you discover yourself, some just faster than others. I’ve learnt that one should never have to apologise for the choices you make or for taking time out to re-evaluate your life and surroundings. I know that some doors need to close in order for others to open, it’s not healthy to keep your hand on the handle. Let folks go.
I find comfort in knowing that I am not the only person on planet earth with this same issue. I have chatted to friends and family members who have reassured me that this is a completely normal emotional stepping stone to overcome. Don’t allow society to dictate to you when and how things should be done in your life. There is no right or wrong, only your way or their way.
In times of need (and I use the word need very loosely) it’s always great knowing you have supportive family and friends keeping you going and encouraging you to not give up.
I have learnt a lot of valuable life lessons these past few months. Lessons one only really discovers in their 20’s. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I sure am going to mould and pave the way I envision best for myself. Drink some coffee or wine, put on some gangster rap and deal with it.
Dress – Ackerman’s
Lip Clutch – Superbalist
Shoes – YDE
Sunglasses – Cotton On
Photography – Tegan Smith Photography